optimism

thank's God it's today and i'm still alive. Thank you for my Jehovah Jireh :)

It's 1.43 AM now and i am so sleepy. not very sleepy but sleepy enough to sleep haha LOL

This week (not this week but, for 5 days...) i feel so empty

yeah. so deeply empty

i lost in my own space

avoid to do praise and worship

i need to go somewhere

i need to rest for a while and stop

my ministries... 

why Lord i feel so empty

although i know Your grace is never stopped.

do you ever feel the same?

do you ever feel not good enough for life

i am so confused and so blind

i need some silent

i need to cry out something from my heart

i know for nothing

wish this condition is about the effect

of my PMS only

hahaha

i know the better thing is gonna happen

and i need to be grateful each day

thank you for my secret motivator

taraaaaaaaaaaa...

my cell group people that support me even they didn't know

that i have planned to resign to be a leader on that cell

because i think my schedule is make me stress

i need to scream

but all of their sharing and their anthusiasm make me

hear my heart say

MORE MORE MORE

SERVE MORE

and i believe i do anything not for nothing

but